Goodbye

Pay close attention to this post because this is the last post in this blog. I loved this blog since the day I have first created it but now, it is time to say goodbye to it. I am abandoning it to grow mouldy and just get forgotten. However, I am going to explain one thing before I abandon this blog.

To who ever who finds it related to them. I am not being bitter although I admit that I am being stubborn. I've stood up for my presentation title though everyone even the tutor despised me for it so, now I am standing firm on my decision/ thoughts just like I did during my presentation. Yes, I (might) lose friends in this process but all this does not matter anymore. Please DO NOT relate this to anyone important to me ESPECIALLY MY PARENTS AND BOYFRIEND. I AGREED with you 100% in the beginning and had a decision which will not make you hard-to-do and I would just be fine but you said something that I really cannot accept. Asking bout' what is it will not help. Explanations won't help. Everything won't help. So, this is my final explanation. This is not a problem of both of us but of everyone. However, I do not blame anyone and I hold not grudges. I cried. I have been moody. I have been depressed but nothing helps. Thus, I am ending this....once and for all. I am taking a HUGE step and I will fall but I do not care anymore. I am ending my sorrows, my pain and letting my scars heal for the first time. Maybe I will not forget but let time decide then. I think I would not want to continue because there is nothing more to say. I apologize for the last time and even if you all do not accept...it is fine by me.

Goodbye, my blog. Goodbye to whom who find it to their concern. Goodbye to all the sadness and pain I have went through. Goodbye the last time.

.+.Joey.+.Signing Off.+.

When I first read the message on this picture I felt it was really deep and while typing this I am still thinking what it means. Read in between the lines and you will get that Valentine's Day is more complicated than love. It is true because everyone goes the extra mile for it. I believe I myself went an extra mile for it and I really think Adrian went the extra two miles for it. However, I think that love is as complicated as Valentine's Day. You will seldom find two of the same people together because opposites attract which will then lead to a complicated relationship. I do admit that my relationship has its own set of complications but there are also equal amount of happiness.

14th February 2008- Is the first Valentine's Day I celebrated with a boyfriend, not boy-friend, not being lonely. I've went through much disappointments in this area. I gave presents to people I wanted to give to but unfortunately, received none in return. That particular time was a sad one for me but let's not look back but forward. So, Valentines this year is something big for me and I want to thank him for making my first Valentine's Day a very special and memorable one. I hope there are more times to come, I promise I will strive for it.

This year my fairy tale dreams came true made by Adrian. We had a romantic candlelit dinner, received a bouquet of two teddy bears and a special gift from the restaurant. It is like a dream come true. I've always imagined this to happen one day and when it did, I felt really touched and happy. Thank you again.

That night I went with him for prayers at an aunt's house. It turned out to be a good experience though I was quite sleepy since we only left at 2am. I had class at 8.30am the next day! so, I only had about three hours of sleep. I am now quite blur and tired but classes go on. Guess what, I am typing this in class with Adrian's new laptop! Amazing isn't it? *evil laugh* I have to admit I am very jealous of him because I want a new computer too! But my dad will not allow it since the "old" one at home works just fine. He even says that it is much better than any computer now. How can I believe that when it is so "slow" and "lagging"? Then again, no choice but to stick to my "elderly" computer until it breaks down....eh...it better not or I'll get the blame.

Adrian is nagging beside me now so I want to end this here. He is not mean okay!? He is just being nice cause I type too much and not following the main topic. Better stop soon or I'll continue typing. Thanks for your time. Take care~

.+.Joey.+.Me want laptop!.+.

Happy Chinese New Year~

I guess I am late again. You can't blame me since I've been busy with CNY and now busy with my assignments. So, please forgive me. Anyway, let's not start this entry with a sad tone or more towards frustration tone. I am here to talk about CNY, right? So, it needs to be a happy entry. Let's get started then.

I have to admit it is a "short" CNY for me because we only have holidays for one week and we start classes today, the fifth day of CNY. "Short", very "short". I use the inverted commas because it is not a very fun year at all. The feeling of CNY is really not there. Oops...sorry, more sad stuff. Let me be finished with it then. This year I have not gone anywhere other than my grandparents house and Adrian's relatives houses. So, it was quite a boring 4 days. We gambled with my relatives (aunts, uncles, grandmother) but like how Jensen pictures it, I've "donated" a lot of money. Sigh...hopefully, I will find a day to win all of it back before CNY ends. *evil laughter*

Ehem... visiting Adrian's relatives was a scary and nervous experience but he assured me that they liked me. However, I do not feel any better but it is my first experience and at least it went well. In turn, he came along to visit my relatives. They took him well though I've only introduced him as my "friend" or "classmate". I'm very sorry about it but I don't have a choice since most of them refered you as my "friend". But, this I can really say. My relatives liked you especially my little cousin sister who I think really liked you. Taureans are people who love children/babies. Note Kristine and you will know. Hehe...Don't be angry it is a compliment.

I can't wait to go house hopping with you all, my friends here at Shah Alam. I've class on the Saturday but I hope I can still join you guys. It would be really fun though a little quiet thisyear since many of us have left but let's still make it fun and enjoyable. "Donate" some to me okay?

That's all for now. I need to get back to my research. I've two presentations on the coming Monday and an article with a deadline of Thursday. Jia You!

.+.Joey.+.In CNY mood.+.